Wasted- Blog 4

While back in a unit she faced many challenges. She thought everyone there was crazy. It didn't take her long to see that she is one of them and they are not lunatics. Her roommate, Joan, tired to connect with her but at first she was very closed off. Joan said, "They are going to make you eat eventually you know?" (191). Other people tried to comfort Marya and told Joan to mind her own business. Marya would stare at things and immediately think about the exact amount of calories in them. She had a panic attack and wanted to return to the hospital because she would prefer the food there. She was complaining the food at the rehab was "dripping with fat." She was refusing to eat anything and truly feared it. She felt as long as she had her eating disorder, she still had herself. She secretly had her laxatives so she felt some comfort. Those sadly, were her security blanket.