Tweak #4

"I stole from my grandparents. I stole from my aunts, uncle, and friends. I stole and justified it and stole more. I feel sick being on the other side of it. I feel unsafe, violated, and out of control." This quote struck me. This shows just how strong an addiction can be. He was now stealing from the people he loved the most in order to get money to support his drug usage. This is truly really sad. The fact that he was convincing himself it wasn't bad of him to do makes it even worse. Stealing is not okay not matter what and there is no justification for it. He was well aware of all he was losing yet, his addiction to meth was too strong to stop. When he was younger he always thought him doing drugs was harmless. He could stop when he wanted and control his usage without getting addicted. This book tells about his violent relapse in which he was no longer able to stop. Everyone sober around him wanted him to stop but he was incapable. He was in too deep with his addiction and even involved in selling. These drugs got him involved with the wrong people  and doing regrettable things that he would not do sober. His friends were ripping people off when selling drugs and coating them with things to make them more addicted. To them it became all about the money and there was no trusting anybody. Nic was losing all his morals. He was not only stealing, but he was having promiscuous sex and bringing others around him down with him. His father knew his life had been changed and harmed when his parents got divorced, but he hoped and prayed that he could help his son. His son's reality was a nightmare. Nic thought he was invincible before his relapse. He would never become one of the addicts and he would never get caught doing drugs. He again was wrong about himself. 

Nic is very similar to young drug users around here. Around here in the north shore, people think they are invincible. There are people who do a ton of drugs and think that they will just be able to quit when they want and they are not ones to become addicts. Many think they will never be caught yet, most of them do get caught. Drugs are dangerous and it truly feels like that is down played by teens. Once one gets addicted it is extremely hard to break it just as Nic is experiencing.